Yay! First post of June! L0L! How's everyone doing? I miss my laptop. =[ I haven't receive any calls from Toshiba yet. Man, they are really taking their time! Well, at least I don't have anything to distract me from my studies right? I can imagine if my laptop was around, then I would be going online and chatting and gaming and doing everything else except studying. L0L! Anyway, maybe my laptop spoilt for a reason yeah? Hmmm, but I realise that it isn't such a big deal afterall. I mean honestly, I think I had more fun since my laptop decided to part from me. As in, I actually spend more time with friends outside because I don't have anything to do at home. Yeah, and that's a good thing. In fact, it's a great thing la! =]

Ok, last month was an alright month for me and I still can't believe it's over so fast man. I had a whole load of fun especially during the 2 weeks when my parents were away in Europe. Heh! It was a wonderful and amazing experience!! I didn't spend that much money compared to the previous month. Well, don't count in the MacBook Pro because my dad's going to sponsor me! Yay! Isn't he nice? Then again, it's a family computer, so he should pay for it right? =X However, I realised that I went drinking 4 times last month. Uh Oh hot dog. How? Yeah, I need to cut down and not go drinking anymore unless my friends ask me. In fact, I went drinking today again. L0L! Social drinker!!

Have you guys heard of this term called "Butterfly Effect"?

The phrase refers to the idea that a butterfly's wings might create tiny changes in the atmosphere that ultimately cause a tornado to appear (or prevent a tornado from appearing). The flapping wing represents a small change in the initial condition of the system, which causes a chain of events leading to large-scale phenomena. Had the butterfly not flapped its wings, the trajectory of the system might have been vastly different.
Recurrence, the approximate return of a system towards its initial conditions, together with sensitive dependence on initial conditions are the two main ingredients for chaotic motion. They have the practical consequence of making complex systems, such as the weather, difficult to predict past a certain time range (approximately a week in the case of weather).

To put it in layman's term, the things that you have or experience today might not be like that it if there was a minor change in the past. Yup, I was thinking about it on Friday when I took a stroll back at night from Bukit Batok interchange to my house. Don't worry, I wasn't EMO or anything, I just wanted to take a walk and think about everything man.

It was an amazing walk for like 30 minutes or so? It felt like a trip down memory lane. I started to recall so much from my life in Primary school to Secondary school to Poly. It was a really wonderful feeling and I walked past the badminton court where I used to play badminton with my primary school friend! Yeah, that was just one of the many things that I recalled. I suppose everyone is thinking about what has any of these have to do with the Butterfly Effect.

Hmmm... just think about it. You shouldn't regret anything that you did all these while. The reason being, you wouldn't be where you are today if you didn't do certain things in the past. Perhaps, you might not even meet the people that you met. Sure, you may regret not studying hard or not working hard or some other stuff. Just imagine, if something as little as a butterfly is able to change the course of everything, then how much impact will you have if you didn't do the things you did? I thought about it and I realised maybe I screwed up my PSLE for a reason, maybe I got into Tanglin Secondary for a reason, maybe I didn't do well for my 'O' levels for a reason, maybe I didn't get into a good class for a reason, maybe I didn't get into Aerospace for a reason, maybe a million other things...

Everything happens for a reason. Sure, at that point of time I may feel down and upset and disappointed and all. However, think about this. If I did do well for my PSLE... I would have gone to SJI. I wouldn't have met all the wonderful and amazing people I have met. I would probably be in NS now after completing my 'A' levels. I'll probably still be that introvert kid I was in Primary school. I probably would't end up in church and become a Christian too.

Get what I mean? I know now that all these things that happened to me, both good and bad had to happen. If any one of these small things didn't happen, I wouldn't be here right now typing this. My life would be different and yes, I do think of "what ifs" all the time. I think about what if I was born in a different family. What if I was brought up differently. What if I got better grades. What if I didn't meet such a person. What if this, what if that. However, no matter how much I think about it, I never ever thought about changing my life.

I'm happy and contented with my life and with everyone I met. Sure, there's been ups and downs, but hey, isn't that part and parcel of life? What would life be without any obstacles? Yes, smooth, but horribly boring! Sure, I've met people who I wish I've never met, but then again, they are the ones who make me a stronger person today. What would it be like if everyone you meet in your life is fabulously wonderful? Yes, that would be ideal, but we all know how the world is like AND you wouldn't be a strong person then because you have never taken a fall before.

Is Professor Shawn making any sense? L0L! Ok, the moral of the story is: Be happy with what you have today and live life with no regrets! Chey Chey, I think I can become consultant liao. L0L! I think everyone should know this about me... Although I'm a very EMO person and I do get extremely down at times, but I'm still happy at the end of the day! Yup! Eventually, things will look up if you want them to. Oh, you know what was the best part of that entire walk back home? It was the last song that played on my phone before I reached home. This song is by Howie Day and it's entitled "Collide". The chorus goes like this...

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

The last 2 lines!! How cool is it, that at the end of the day, I manage to meet all of you!! Especially those close ones of mine! Heh! Yeah, so I would like to dedicate this song to everyone that knows me! The song is on my playlist on the left on the screen. Just double-click on it and listen to it! =]

Anyway, I'm pretty tired right now. L0L! I went out in the afternoon to meet Malbindar, Serene and Hongyue for drinks at Holland Village! I met Alex after that in the evening for dinner and to study!! Man, my common test paper is on Tuesday and I'm a little worried. I hope I'll be able to ace it! L0L! So my plan for this week is Tuesday evening go for farewell dinner with Kumar because he's booking in on Thursday. Wednesday, accompany Gavin for the day and send him off at the airport. That means 5th time going airport this year. L0L! Oh oh, anyone wants to spend Friday with me? It's a special day!! 2 months!! Heh! I'm stopping here for now! Take care everyone and have a well deserved break! =]

"We could never learn to be brave and patient, if there were only joy in the world."
- Helen Keller