Part Deux.
my name is Shawn. The Message.
Tunes. Them. Daryl Farhanah Hongyue Jian Chao Liu Yun Qing Xiang Serene Previously. Beautiful Like You. Hi Blog ! Ep 1.4 Ep 2.3 - my name is Shawn II Ep 1.3 - my name is Shawn. Ep 4.2 - The Difference Between Colleagues & Friends Ep 3.2 - 3 Months Later... Ep 2.2 - New Year; New Hope. Ep 1.2 Chapter II Ep 7.1 - The Real World. The Past. May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 April 2008 May 2008 September 2008 December 2008 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 December 2009 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 July 2010 December 2010 June 2011 Credits. This skin is produced by Headlight Productions. The icons are from Three More Steps. All codes are meticulously hand-coded, and can not be used as basecodes or reference. All css and javascript in the code passes validation. © Copyright Headlight 2008 - Forever. All Rights Reserved. |
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Wednesday, January 30, 2008 8:26 pm
a month has past.
HELLO! Yes, I'm back to update! L0L! It's been nearly 2 weeks since I last updated. Damn, so much to say, but so little space! Alright, so I'll try to fill you guys in about what's been happening the past 2 weeks. 18th Jan Delightedness for all FYP students in Ngee Ann. It was the last day for our FYP and we were showcasing our final product in the technofair. Let the pictures do the talking... then I'll talk. L0L! The FYP team. there goes a year of Dota, Enfo, TD, etc. I'll miss you guys! <3 Yeah! I really had fun at the technofair. Honestly, not many students were keen on looking at the projects. It was mainly lecturers who were the ones asking questions and stuff. The rest of the time I was hanging around at my friends booth and just having a good time getting to know new friends. L0L! Even Gavin, Nigel, Qingxiang, RER, Qiaozhen and Ms Zarina came man. Cool right! Thanks for the support! =] After the technofair concluded, it was time to celebrate! Yeah, went to Changi Airport Terminal 3 with Alex, Dennis, Gavin and Monkey. L0L! MONKEY!!! AHAHAHA! Shall let the pictures do the talking... Our 2nd Album, Back of Your Car is is stores now!! L0L! I was trying to take a photo of the clouds, but the lorry drove past. L0L! This is what a pro photographer is capable of! L0L! previously on prison break. Err... The Click Three? We were practising Qi-Gong. L0L! I'm not the only one staring at the sun. Making The Band. emo.smile.emo.smile.emo We were trying to take a photo of ourselves jumping with the camera's timer. L0L! Us at Terminal 3 of the airport. A preview of Changi Airport Terminal 3. Yes, it was a great day la! The structure and design of terminal 3 was really cool. It isn't that big though, we managed to walk from one end to the other end quite fast actually while trying to find Popeyes Chicken And Biscuits fast food restaurant. Dinner was at Popeyes and many felt the food wasn't worth the money and it wasn't fantastic afterall. I felt it was alright. It was a long ride home after that. Great Day! =] 21st Jan It was project room outing! Most of us turned up except for Bryan and Jasper. I met Binghong and Weian at Bukit Batok and we took a bus to Marina Square to meet Keewei. Jeremiah came later. Lunch was at Yuki Yaki and they were having a promotion. It was $12 for the buffet, but sushi wasn't included. An extra $5 for the ice-cream buffet. The food wasn't bad at all, but I couldn't enjoy that much because I was having a sore throat. However, the ice-cream isn't worth the money at all and I'm definitely not going for the ice-cream buffet anymore. L0L! After that we proceeded to Cineleisure to meet Daryl and Nicholas to catch Cloverfield. Please don't watch it! L0L! Luckily, we only paid $6 per person. Jeremiah left after that while the rest of us went over to parklane for lan-gaming, pool and arcade. We left about 11pm plus to catch the last bus/train. Hopefully, we'll be able to have an outing like this again and all of us will be able to make it! Cheers! =] 23th Jan It was the last day for IS. Our EPM presentation went pretty alright, so hopefully it will pull our grade up because the previous presentation wasn't that good. For WISP, our lecturer told us if we submit our reflection before the last lesson, then we won't have to come for it. I already did my reflection, so I let her take a look and she said it was around a B+ to an A-. I decided to improve on it better and get a better grade, so hopefully I can get an A. After that, I went to Queensway with Dennis and Gavin. I managed to get a pair of jeans at $38 and Dennis bought a skinny tie at $25! We went over to Peninsular Plaza after that to get Dennis's guitar strings and Gavin bought his Adidas shoe. Proceeded to Bugis after that to meet Weixuan and did some shopping. Dinner was at the newly revamped foodcourt. The Beef Noodles there is good! Do try it out. 25th Jan Finally met up with Garyson after not seeing him for 3 years? L0L! Khairul came along as well. Well, Garyson still looks the same as before. Went for a game of pool and did lots of catching up over dinner at the void deck. L0L! He's leaving on the 1st of Feb for attachment in China for 2 months. Yeah, all the best man and hope to see you again soon if possible yea? We can still meet up again if I'm not in NS after you come back. L0L! Take care man and Bon Voyage! =] 28th Jan Binghong, Keewei, Weian and myself went over to Bryan's place for a mahjong session. L0L! It took us about 3 hours to complete the whole 4 winds. L0L! I ended up losing $6. However, we played Blackjack after that and I managed to win $13. Yes, more than enough to cover my losses. The last game was In Between and I lost $6 again! L0L! Yes, in other words, I broke even as there was no profit and no loss. L0L! We went for dinner after that before heading back home. Oh yah, Bryan has a horny dog called Binky. Just when I thought Gavin's dog, Whiskers, was horny enough. Binky is probably 10 times worse! L0L! He tried humping Weian too! L0L! Damn Funny can? L0L! L0L! Today I studied! OMG! L0L! It's been a much more productive day today compared to yesterday. Yesterday I attended a 90 minutes online interactive survey from 7pm. After doing the survey, my account will be deposit with 600 points! Currently I have 842 points and I can redeem cash only when it hits 1000 points. This means, with the 600 points, I have a total of 1442 points and I can finally redeem cash after about 3 years? L0L! 1000 points is worht US$50, that means I have US$72.10 and when you convert it to Singapore Dollars, I have slightly above SG$100! Man, an early Chinese New Year Ang Bao! L0L! YAY! Anyway, I'm left with only 2 days of lessons in Ngee Ann Poly, which is tomorrow and Friday. After which, I'm only left with 2 exam papers on the 16th and 18th of Feb before I officially graduate! YAY! I decided to place an order for a 80gb iPod Classic Black from a guy Daryl refered me to. He's placing mass orders from abroad so the cost price is $340 compared to the original price of $420. It is nearly $100 cheaper and I feel that it's really worth the money. I've already started updating my iTunes and downloading more songs! L0L! Please do flood me with quality songs if you have any. Thank you. I even have some videos ready to upload in. However, the iPod will only be arriving the week after Chinese New Year and I can't wait! Is it a little too late to make a New Year Resolution? I don't think so right, since it's only January! Yes, I know I'm a little slow, but still I decided to make this resolution after putting much thought into it. January is coming to an end and alot has happened since the start of 2008. In fact, alot has been happening since last year that I wasn't aware of, but all is good now and everything will be better by this Saturday! Yup, so here's my New Year Resolution: This year, I want to be more independent. I want to rely on myself from now onwards and not on others. I feel that I need to grow up and be more mature. Take control of my own life and take responsibility for everything that happens in my life. I don't want to depend on others anymore because I realise that others will not necessarily always be there for you when you need them and you can never trust someone completely. Yes, that's my resolution there and hopefully by the end of the year I can look back at everything that has happened and learn from it. I'm not young anymore. I'm going to be 20 soon and I've learnt a valuable lesson. One that I can never learn elsewhere. Perhaps, it's a blessing in disguise. Life is a learning journey. Alright, I'm going to stop here for today. Do keep in touch and continue tagging and flooding my tagboard. I'll update again soon yeah? PROMISE!! ahahah! Take care guys and hopefully Febuary will be a better month for everyone! Peace! =] "The more passions and desires one has, the more ways one has of being happy." - Charlotte-Catherine
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Thursday, January 17, 2008 11:14 pm
Forgiveness
Hey guys, I was supposed to blog few days ago about last Sunday's service, but I was occupied. Yes, so I'm going to tell you more about what I've learnt last week. It really impacted me alot and I guess there couldn't be a better timing for that sermon. It was preached by Pastor Tan. L0L! Not me, not me. So here goes... -------------------------------------- Forgiveness - Letting go of the past - Embracing the future - Forgiveness enlarges your future 1. It is unconditional 2. Doesn't minimise seriousness of the offence 3. Isn't resuming a relationship without change (3Rs) - Repetance - Restitution (Restore) - Rebuilding Trust 4. Isn't forgetting what happened 5. Isn't my duty if I'm not the one hurt - The person who commits the offence should ask for forgiveness himself instead. Why many people struggle with forgiving? Because they do not see the value of forgiving. Value of Forgiveness - Not letting our future be held captive by past offences - Life is 10% "What happened" & "90% how we react to it 1. What's most important to you 2. What you stand for. 3. What you are willing to pay the price for? If we judge what we value by our circumstances, we will de-value what is important and give value to what is momentarily. 1. Give up your right to get even. 2. Learn to set boundaries. 3. Respond to evil with Good 4. Repeat the steps as long as necessary ----------------------------------------- Yes yes, end of my preaching. I know it's sort of messy and all over the place, but I think you all can get the meaning right? Somehow.. L0L! Oh well, that sermon really made me think about what has happened recently and how much I've been affected by it. Well, life still goes on and I guess I have to be stronger as a person. I wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long Somewhere i belong Oh well, tomorrow is Ngee Ann Poly's Techno fair and my group will be showcasing our final year project. We will be at block 8 level 2 in the ava room. Do come and visit us and give us some support if you are free! L0L! Anyway, I'm stopping here for today! Tomorrow's going to be a long day! After that, I'll be free from FYP! I'll leave you guys with a photo we took that day at Esplanade. I forgot to upload it on my previous entry. So take good care and PEACE! =] I'm sure you can identify me! The most handsome one of course! L0L! "The easiest thing in the world to be is you. The most difficult thing to be is what other people want you to be. Don't let them put you in that position." - Leo Buscaglia
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Sunday, January 13, 2008 11:00 pm
snap!
So we really went to Esplanade last night. There was myself, Dennis, Farhanah and Gavin. Dinner was at Cavana. $7.20 was the cost price of the meal, which was acceptable. Worth the money? Not really in my opinion. We did have a good time taking photos! Below are some shots I took with Gavin's 8 megapixel Canon camera. Please do give me some comments! I'm just a beginner and it's just an interest! Let the photos do the talking. view from the rooftop terrace the merlion. shadow of the day. closing the doors. wherever it may lead. to wherever. neverending road. Eh, don't laugh leh! I put effort in these photos ok! With that, I can conclude that being a photography is that as easy as what people think. Comments? Comments? Meaningful right my photos! L0L! I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you Anyway, went to CHC @ Jurong West with Dennis today. He said he will probably make a comeback at Expo next weekend, so yeah. It has been really nice going back to Jurong West for the past 3 weeks and meaningful too! Oh man, I'm seriously going to miss it la. I really hope I will go back soon. Thanks Dennis for the past 3 weeks! =] Oh, met his cell group leader as well, Lucas O'Neil sias! MSS ok! (MSS = Mai Siao Siao). L0L! Sometimes I need some time...on my own Sometimes I need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time...on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone The sermon today was really powerful. It's basically about Forgiveness, I will talk more about it tomorrow when I get the stuff from Dennis. L0L! Yes, I'm going through quite alot in my life recently and it involves alot. The sermon today really impacted me alot and I want to be a better person after hearing everything today. I'm sure the sermon meant alot to YOU as well! Yes! Yes! YOU! YOU! *hints* *hints* *winks* *winks* L0L! I will never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all. Even if saving you sends me to heaven. I have been really thinking alot over the past few days especially what Michelle told me about wanting others to love me for who I am. Yes, I do want people to love me for the person I am. I can't compromise that and be someone whom I'm not. If people can't accept me for who I am, then the friendship would never work out. Even if I were to change and be someone I'm not, how long will that work? Only people who know me well enough will know who I am and LOVE me for that. I can't be with people who can't accept me for who I am as a person. I won't compromise that. Maybe we're trying Trying too hard Maybe we're torn apart Maybe the timing Is beating our hearts We're empty Yes, so accept me for who I truly me or don't be my friend. Sorry for being direct, but seriously that's how it is. I'm not a good actor. I'm straight to the point and speak my mind. Noone is perfect and I'm not perfect either. There are many things I need to sort out myself before I can be a better person. Sometimes, it isn't the bad points you should look at, but rather the good points of a person. I close both locks below the window. I close both blinds and turn away. Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple. Sometimes goodbye’s the only way. A wise friend once told me this. "Although you have so few bad points about you, I still look at them and condemn you. You, on the other hand, look at my few good points and are capable of accepting them." Shouldn't we all look at a person's strong points instead of the bad ones? We shouldn't take others for granted. When we are given an inch, don't ask for another foot. Accept it and be grateful to the person. Why do we always want MORE each time? I'm probably never going to be good enough for anyone, but I just hope that others can/will learn to accept that. =] There can be miracles, when you believe Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill Who knows what miracles you can achieve When you believe, somehow you will You will when you believe Alright guys, I'm going to stop here for today because it's late! I need to get my well earned rest before a full day in school tomorrow! I will try to update again tomorrow yeah? No promises though! Stay tune yea? Support! Support! If you would like to vote for me, please make a tag in the box to your right ---> Yes! Simple right? =X Ok then, take care everyone and PEACEsssssssss! =] "Friends are born, not made." - Henry Adams
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Saturday, January 12, 2008 3:56 pm
new layout!!
Yay! A new layout!
A change at last! A NEW start for me! Yes yes, I'm starting life all over again as you can see. This is the beginning of something new! Genesis: Chapter 1. Please give me feedback on the new layout and your thoughts! I'm still looking for a better layout, but at the moment, I'm just going to stick with this. Yup, the first chapter of a new beginning! A fresh start. Alright, nothing much to update on except for the new layout! L0L! I'm really interested in photography and maybe later I'll head out with my friends to take some nice pictures at Esplanade at night! I don't have a good photography camera although my dad has one. His is the film kind and I really want a good digital photograher's camera! L0L! Please BLESS me with one ? My birthday's coming!! L0L! Yeah, I'm going to be 20 soon! Oh no! =[ Okok, I'm going to do some other stuff already. Take care everyone and PEACE! =] "What's the use of worrying? It never was worthwhile." - George Asaf "You always second guess yourself. Just think of all the time you'd save if you just trusted yourself." - Takayuki Ikkaku, Arisa Hosaka and Toshihiro Kawabata
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Friday, January 11, 2008 12:00 am
New Life.
Hey guys! Sorry for the extremely late update! Happy New Year to everyone! Yes yes, I'm 10 days late! L0L! Still, better late than never right? Yeah, I know the first post of the year is properly freaky. Yesterday was really one of the biggest turning point ever in my life. I realised that you can never trust a person completely. The only person that you can trust 100% is none other than yourself. Basically, the phrase "Every Man For Himself" is nothing less than accurate. Well, I guess I was naive to think otherwise. It hurts more when you realise what the person you cared about the most is capable of doing to you. The worst part is when you have done no wrong ever to the person or the person's love ones, yet you get treated in such a way.
Can you forgive me again? I don't know what I said But I didn't mean to hurt you Oh well, what's done is done. Where do we go from here? I have no clue. I guess we both still need some time to think about things through before making a final decision. Sometimes I wonder why I can be so forgiving after getting cheated and scammed like that. I think many others in my shoes wouldn't do the same. I'm in a dilemma and I just want to know what's best for ME right now. Sorry man, but I have to think about myself right now correct? I really hope you can understand and respect the decision I make. I heard the words come out I thought that I would die It hurts so much to hurt you It's really nice of you to say all the things in the tagboard and I really do hope that you mean it. Especially the part where you said this "other den my gf (cos she's my life partner) and my parents, u are the most impt to me. really." I really hope you meant that and yes, you really do have to make me believe it and earn back my trust. I know that you are a good person, but we all do make mistakes and it's how we learn from it that counts right? I hope that you will change for the better with or without me in your life. Can you promise me that? Then you look at me You're not shouting anymore You're silently broken Well, I guess you guys can tell that my new year hasn't started out well yeah? I mean it's really a bad start. On the last 15 minutes of 2007, I was in tears, so I didn't expect 2008 to be a good year. Furthermore, the past 10 days have been a real torture and struggle emotionally. It's hard just thinking about everything that has happened and I really don't want to talk much about it yea? I hope you guys don't ask me about it and if you do and I say I don't want to talk about it, then please drop the subject k? I really appreciate everyone's concern and I really want to thank those who hear me out and gave me much needed advice. I'd give anything now to kill those words for you Khairul, thanks for always accompanying me to listen to all my nonsense and problems time and time again. I truly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart la. Seriously. Thanks for all the wonderful bonding sessions at our usual void deck hangout. Although I know you are a very "relac 1 corner" person. L0L! But still, thanks for ALWAYS listening and giving me your thoughts and advice. Oh ya, Happy 20th Birthday! 10th Jan! ahaha! I won't forget! =] Each time I say something I regret, I cry "I don't wanna lose you!" Mal, thanks for just being around on Wednesday before I went to settle things. You really made me feel happier and more composed and relax. I think if I didn't meet you, I would have already broken down seriously. The advice you gave me really helped alot and thanks for just being there when I needed someone. Also, thanks for giving me a phone call earlier to check on how I'm feeling. I really do appreciate it! =] But some how I know that You will never leave me, yeah. Dennis, thanks for taking me to Church for the past 2 weeks and for hearing me out and telling me what I should do. Seriously, I think if I didn't talk to you about it, this matter wouldn't be solved yet. I would properly not talk to the cgl about it because I would still be wondering if it's still the right thing to do. Thank God I did and I finally manage to discover the truth amongst all the lies. Thanks man. =] 'Cause you were made for me Some how I'll make you see How happy you make me Michelle, thanks to you and your fiance, this issue was finally resolved. I truly respect you as a leader. Without your help, I would never find out the truth behind everything. Thanks for the advice as well and thanks for talking to him and helping both of us settle things out. I appreciate everything you have done to help and I will listen to your advice, but at the same time I'm going to think everything through before making a decision. Thank you. =] I can't live this life Without you by my side I need you to survive You, you know who you are la. Thanks for telling the truth and not denying everything you took from me or did. It takes alot to admit what you did especially after doing such hurtful things. I respect that you finally admit your mistakes and take full blame for it. I respect you for wanting to repent and be a better person. I know that you will be capable of doing, but it will take time. Just know who you are as a person and the people who are important in your life. Peace yea? =] So stay with me You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.. I think for now I'm starting a new life, one which is different from the past 3 years. I guess it's better to rely on yourself and not others. Trust yourself more than others. I guess it's going to be a hard transition for me, one that I might even be able to accept and one that I might not even be ready to do. Then again, it's something I have to do for myself. Oh well, nobody said life was going to be easy right? Sometimes, I really wonder why all these things happen to me? I always wonder what I did to deserve all of this? Oh well. =[ And you forgive me again You're my one true friend And I never meant to hurt you Anyway, I left out so much from last time! My common test results are out and I did reasonably well! I'm happy with my results la. Guess what? My FYP open house is next Friday! After that, I don't have classes on Monday and Tuesday anymore! Woohoo! Yes, it also means Poly life is coming to an end in slightly more than a month. Wow. Can you imagine 3 years just flew by like that? Pretty amazing right? The worst part is I don't want to be an engineer! L0L! I realise that maybe I should be a DJ or TV host since I like to talk so much! L0L! REALLY REALLY! I would like to try what it's like to be a DJ! Oh well, as for now it's just completing Poly and entering NS life! I have no plans for my future yet, so I'm hoping that I start to think about it seriously! L0L! And you forgive me again To all my Poly friends and classmates, these 3 years have really been CRAZY! Thanks for the awesome and incredible times we shared. The wild and crazy things we did and basically the FUN we had together! I really hope to keep in contact with all you guys because I do enjoy the company! People always say that "Friends always come and go, but true friends will always stay!". That's really true la. I mean it's hard to find a true friend that stays with you forever! If I'm able to stay in contact with my sec school friends, then I think I'll be able to do the same for my poly friends as well! =] You're my one true friend Alright people, time to sleeps! Thanks for sticking around with me! Oh btw, I'm getting back my MacBook Pro! Yes Yes! The one that was "lost", but please don't ask me why or how alright? Alright then, take care everyone and have a good year ahead! Peace! =] And I never meant to hurt you "Repentance may begin instantly, but reformation often requires a sphere of years." - Henry Ward Beecher "It is much easier to repent of sins that we have committed than to repent of those we intend to commit." - Josh Billings The above 2 quotes are just for you. Repentance isn't something you can accomplish within a day or two, it takes time. For you to repent, you have to change. For you to change, you have to believe that you can. I believe you can. Take care. =]
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Thursday, January 10, 2008 10:59 am
the truth hurts.
After 3 years, I finally learnt the truth about you. All the lies that you put me through all this time. They are right when they say the truth hurts because words can't even describe what i'm feeling right now. I'm thankful that you finally told me the truth about EVERYTHING. Basically, now I really don't know who you really are. I feel that our friendship has been nothing but a lie all this time. Money was one of the factors that led to this. Money is a sensitive thing, but everyone loves money. Greed. Everything you did is unacceptable and wrong. Some of the lies you told really shock me. For you to go to that extend to lie is really unbelievable. All this time, I still do not know what you think of me and how much you truly cared. What's the truth about our friendship? How much did you truly care about me? I wish I know exactly how you feel, but I'll never know even if you tell me. It may just be another lie afterall. Why did you require a third party to interfere before you can tell me the truth? Is it so hard for you to tell someone the truth? I don't know why I am capable of forgiving someone like you, but I guess I want you to change for the better. The only reason I can think of for forgiving you is that I do care about you. We all make mistakes, but it's really how we grow from it. You are a master of lies. You can lie without blinking and thinking. You can really act out a whole show and make someone sympathise with you thinking that you're in need of it when actually everything in your life is perfectly alright. At the end of the day, I'm the one that suffers for being "the good guy". I'm the one that suffers for being NICE. I'm the one that suffers for wanting to HELP. I'm the one that suffers for your SELFISHNESS. I'm the one that suffers from all your LIES. I don't think anyone would ever forgive you for what you did if they were in my shoes. The only reasons I can think of for giving you a chance is I'm an idiot/fool OR I truly do care for you and I want to help you become a better person. Other than the things you owe me (i'm sure you know what they are), you don't owe me anything else. You don't have to carry on with this friendship if you don't wish to. I don't pressurize you to do so. However if you do wish to continue with it, then be TRUE about it and NO MORE LIES. Right now, I really do not know how I feel towards you and I guess only time will tell when I truly get to know you for you are. I'm sure you want to know that yourself too. There are still many things I'm confused about and I do want to get my doubts clear. The only reason why I feel you told those lies was because of GREED. Am I right? Were all the nice things you did a lie as well? Like the things you bought for me? The things you said to me? The times you approached me for help? The times you ask me for forgiveness? Take your gf out of the picture because she has nothing to do with anything. I don't know how serious you see what you did as, but let me tell you the truth. It's a SERIOUS offence to CHEAT someone and it's WRONG to LIE from the very start. The WORST part was lying about your FAMILY and SWEARING upon their NAMES. Please don't ever do that again for your OWN sake. Where do we go from here? I have no clue honestly. But you have to think about how much our friendship means to you and how much you truly want it to continue on yea? If you feel that I'm nothing much to you or I'm a burden or just not important in your life, then do let me know. Honestly, I'm still trying to figure out how much I mean to you in your life all this time. You said things like "just like any other friend", "important to me", "don't want to lose you", "can live without you", "care about you", "not close as my closer friends", "closer than most friends", "love you as a friend", "love you as a buddy", "love you as a brother", "hate me", "want to cut off friendship", "brothers forever". So which of those you said above is truly what you mean? I think you know all this time what I treat you as and who I am to you. Don't let that cloud your mind or anything. Just think about how you felt about our FRIENDSHIP all this time. I think once you are certain about it and I can get that definite answer from you, then I will know how to proceed. BOTH of us have alot to LEARN from this and I do hope that we will learn from it and become BETTER as a person from now onwards. The damage has already been done. The pain has already been felt. The truth has already been surfaced. From now onwards, no more lies ok? Take this as a learning experience. "Life is a learning journey" right? We learn from mistakes and become better as a person! Yup, NO HARD FEELINGS! =]
Take care man/bro/buddy/friend/dude/mate/pal/comrade/whatever la hor (OMGWTHBBQ!?) L0L! We shall leave that like that for now and see how things goes? See how things goes slowly and steadily! PEACE! =] "Life is a learning journey." - JC (you la kambing!) |
|