Part Deux.
my name is Shawn. The Message.
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Previously On Shawn's Blog
Monday, April 14, 2008 3:52 pm
importance in life
Hey guys, I have been putting some thought about the things that matter in life. Recently, I discovered that my heart isn't as normal as everyone else. Let me sum it up real quick.
I don't want this moment to ever end Where everythings nothing without you I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile 'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you My heart has irregular rhythms compared to a normal heart. I have like 10 irregular beats in just a second, which makes it pretty scary. In doctor's terms, it's very frequent PVCs. I was told different things from different doctors, so I'm not too sure which to follow. The doctor at Alexander Hospital said it isn't a problem if my heart isn't weak and thankfully, my heart is not weak. The doctor at Military Medicine Institute said the beats are abnormal and frequent and I might have to go for more test. My dad's doctor said I shouldn't be doing any exercise and I should take medication to reduce the irregular beats because in the future it may weaken my heart. The polyclinic's doctor said I shouldn't do strenuous exercise in the next 3 months. I asked him if I could do any exercise at all and he said it was better not to. Yup, I'm pretty bumped out about it and I guess pretty screwed in a way. Medical fees aren't cheap and medication will only cost a bomb. I just hope that somehow I will get better. It's okay to be angry and never let go It only gets harder the more that you know When you get lonely if no one's around You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down Going through all of that really made me thought about the importance in life and how to lead it. Sometimes, I feel as though I'm not living the life I want. I feel that I've wasted lots of time and effort on people that don't even appreciate it. I don't mind putting time and effort into people, but the least they can do is appreciate it right? Is it so hard to be thankful and grateful? Why do people take things for granted? Why do people forgo a second chance to change for the better and be a better person? I know that if I'm ever given a second chance to learn from my mistakes, I will definitely take it and make the best out of it. I want you to know With everything I won't let this go, These words are my heart and soul I realised that I shouldn't be spending time and effort on people that don't appreciate anything. What's the point? I can't keep trying to please everyone around me like I always do anymore. Yes, I'm that kind of person and that's why people always take advantage of me. I know who are the people in my life that care and love me for who I truly am. I guess those are the people who I should spend more quality time with rather than those who only care about what I have or what I can do. We came together but you left alone And I know how it feels to walk out on your own Maybe someday I will see you again And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend I guess I realised who I truly am as a person. I'm just your nice and naive 20-year old kid across the street you know? Yes, I'm unique and special in my own way and I believe everyone is. For me, I tend to think with my Heart more than my Head. It's a good thing in certain ways because I know I have a big heart and a big capacity to forgive. However, my best attribute is also my biggest downfall in a way. I tend to give in to others too much and perhaps allow them to walk all over me in a way. I have to find that balance, so that things will be better for me. It isn't always about the people around me. Sometimes, I need to be selfish and think about what's better for me. Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt Pieces of memories fall to the ground I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go Oh well, enough of me ranting. I checked with the polyclinic's doctor and he said I won't be able to get into PES B. That really sank my heart. I just want to be normal like everyone else and do what everyone else does. It sucks to think that I'm abnormal compared to everyone around me. It just pisses me of. What have I ever done to deserve to be abnormal ? Oh man, I really hate going to the army to be a clerk. To me, it's just a waste of time and not worth it. My dad was asking me to take night classes if I were to get those 9 to 5 jobs, but I don't know if I still have the energy to study after work. I also need to have my own free time right? But if you can't hold on Let it go and come back in your heart And if you can't hold on Maybe it's not time for you Anyway, I'm planning a trip over to Kuala Lumpur for a couple of days. Alex is still waiting for his passport to be ready, so we haven't decided on the date yet. However it should be between 12th to 18th May. Alex's friend can get us a good rate at this 4-star hotel called "The Royale Bintang KL". It's really cheap like 100RM per night for the room, which means SG$50. That means each of us only pay SG$25/night in a 4-star hotel smack right in the middle of the city, where the shopping district is. Isn't that awesome? L0L! And if you can't hold on On your very last try I'll be there in the morning to pull you through Also, my dad wants to bring me to Cairns in Australia for 5 days. It's sort of a Father-Son bonding thing. The thing is he can only go in either May or June. However, I'm working and I'm most slightly taking a week off in May to go KL with my friend, so I can't take another week off. Oh man, I have wanted to go to Cairns for such a long time already! I hope I can plan everything out nicely and make a trip there! Yup, not to forget another trip with my friends to Hanoi, Vietnam as well. I hope that would work out as well. I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'As I bleed my heart out to show And I won't let go Oh well, right now, it's just about working during the weekdays and enjoying as much as I can over the weekends. I'm starting to like my job alot because there really isn't much to do here. Sometimes I just work for less than an hour and the rest of the day I slack off. Honestly, the most I worked so far is like half the day? The other half is spent during my own stuff. Haha. Yup, so that's the great thing about working here and there isn't much to complain considering that I'm given a laptop and there's internet access as well (that's why I can blog!). Haha. Yeah, so I guess I'll be stopping here for today. Take care everyone and I hope to hear from all of you again soon! Remember to SMILE! =] "Be civil to all; sociable to many; familiar with few; friend to one; enemy to none." - Benjamin Franklin "Be honorable yourself if you wish to associate with honorable people." - Welsh Proverb
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Wednesday, April 09, 2008 5:51 pm
moving on.
Hello! I'm bored at work, so I decided to blog for awhile before I knock off from work. Yup! Work ends in about half an hour, so I shall spend the half an hour wisely by blogging! Well, life has taken a huge turn for me. I can't exactly say I'm all smiles and happy now, but still I'm feeling alot better. The period from Friday 3am to Sunday 1am was probably one of the most stressful days of my life. Thankfully, everything has been settled and I really hope all goes well for everyone.
I won't go into deep details, but let's just say I got cheated for close to a year on a 5-digit amount of money. Please do not ask for further details and for those of you who already know the full story, please keep it to yourself. I'll prefer not to think about such painful memories and move on with my life. I'm coping better compared to those 3 days and I pray that in time I'll forget about it. Alright, on a lighter note, check this tshirt out from snorgtees! http://www.snorgtees.com/peanutbutterandjellybff-p-288.html?osCsid=48145ebb112a3cf4ad354710a8fded7d Yup, think of going to order this for myself because I think it's damn funny. L0L! Some guy is doing a mass order in hardware zone forums, so I'll place an order with him. It will probably cost SG$25 inclusive of the shipping, so it's a pretty good deal! =] Also, check this other 2 tees from threadless. Unfortunately, they're out of stock, but I'm trying to request for a reprint. Hopefully, it pays off. How I wish Singapore carries such unique designs. L0L! http://www.threadless.com/product/559/Adultery http://www.threadless.com/product/868/Dulces_Vacaciones Oh, Andrea's got the job at the ZOO as an animal show presenter! Man, good for her! She asked me to apply as well and I'm considering and weighing my options right now. L0L! Gavin's heading for Basic Military Training (BMT) tomorrow! That's amazingly fast. Well, all the best dude! So, I was thinking about where I would like to travel before I get enlisted into the army. There are so many places that I want to go too. Mostly are in Asia because I was thinking more about the budget and everything... - Australia Always wanted to go there and have fun. I heard it's similar to New Zealand, but I just have to go there and experience the fun, shopping and people! Gd Day, Mate! - Vietnam (Hanoi, Ho Chi Minh City) Seems like a really nice place. I want to go see their famous Hoan Kiam Lake, go to the water park, try the food, shop and experience the culture. - Thailand (Ko Pha Ngan, Bangkok, Chiang Mai) The beach resort in Ko Pha Ngan seems really nice. There aren't alot of people there as well because it's not as popular as Phuket, but I would love to head down there for some water sports and fun! Bangkok is definitely more for shopping and Chiang Mai is more for the culture! Yup, a little bit of everything and not forgetting the food! - Indonesia (Bintan) Once again for the beach! However, there are other dry sports there as well to do. There's the Go-Kart and the 4x4. The thing is that it is expensive compared to Ko Pha Ngan because it uses Singapore's currency, but still worth going! - Taiwan (Taipei) I heard that the shopping is great and the food is wonderful! L0L! - China (Shanghai) Seems interesting. - Cambodia (Siem Reap) Honestly, I just want to go there and take a look at Angkor Wat because there isn't really anything else to do. The structure of Angkor Wat looks amazing in pictures and I have to see it myself to believe it! L0L! I'm also thinking of maybe heading down to Kuala Lumpur again and maybe Hong Kong as well. I think those are the 2 places that gives value for money other than Thailand and I think most of my friends would prefer to go to some place near and cheap. Yeah, so I'm hoping that I get to travel to 2 different destinations before I head for National Service! Ok guys! It's 2 minutes to 6.30pm! I have to pack everything and shut down the computer and leave. L0L! I'll update again soon! Most probably when I'm working because sometimes it gets really boring and there's absolutely nothing to do! L0L! Alright guys, take care everyone and I hope to hear from all of you soon! Cheers! =] "You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough." - Frank Crane
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Wednesday, April 02, 2008 9:23 pm
Genesis: Chapter 2.
YATTA!!!
HELLO! NEW BLOG!!! So what do you think of my new blogskin ? L0L! Better say nice ar! Welcome to Genesis Chapter 2. After being absent for 2 WHOLE months, I'm back and better than EVER! MUAHAHAHA! Let me just give you guys a brief 2 month summary! - NS Medical on 13th Feb. Got into PES D due to irregular heart rhythm. Still awaiting for my PES, should be either B or C. - Echo scanning at Alexandra Hospital on 14th Feb. - BIRTHDAY on 15th Feb!! 20 years on this planet! Spent the day studying with Weian and Siangyee because FCS Exam was the next day (16th Feb). - Exams (16th Feb and 18th Feb). - End of Poly life (18th Feb). - Started working at V'hive Causeway point on 21st Feb. - Treadmill Running Test at Military Medicine Institute on 10th March. - Quit job on 16th March due to an arguement with "boss". - New admin job at Raffles City Tower on 17th March. - Trip to the Zoo with Secondary school friends on 30th March. Yup, besides all of those, I still had many other outings and I really enjoyed it. It's been a pretty interesting 2 months full of ups and downs. Well, although things aren't looking up, but I'm still going to put a big smile on my face and move on because I'm over it and over you. =] Honestly, you're dead in my book. Have a good life! That's all I would like to say to you. =] Oh well, here are some things I'm planning to do before my NS enlistment. I called and check when I will be getting my PES and they said I'll be getting it by 17 June, which means I won't be able to make the June intake. I'm pretty bumped out about it because it means I'll have till September to rot and by then, most of my friends would be in the army already. Oh well, every thing happens for a reason right? So here are some of my plans... - Continue to work. - Wild Wild Wet! - Secondary School Gathering/Chalet (as suggested by Adlina) - a week in Kuala Lumpur in May with Poly friends. Yup! I can't wait. L0L! I have been purchasing things online recently because they are somehow nicer and cheaper. I'm waiting for my iPod Classic 80GB Black to arrive. I got a pretty good deal at $340, which includes a free wall adapter. I made a purchase from Threadless for a tshirt at $15. There's this local online shop I made a purchase at for a US imported tshirt at $28. Do check out the designs because they are pretty good and I doubt you can get them in Singapore. The website is below. http://vgohyk.livejournal.com/1014.html#cutid1 I'm also trying to seal a deal for a Topman long sleeve shirt from this guy online at $45. The normal price at the Topman store is usually $73. I should be getting it tomorrow. By the way, I'm thinking of getting a new digital camera. Actually, I'm looking at Canon Ixus 80IS and the best price so far is $400. I haven't check out Sim Lim yet, so hopefully I would be able to get a better deal. Let me know if any of you guys know where I can get a better deal! Thanks! =] Oh well, I think I'm going to stop here for now! I'll will update again in less than 2 months for sure! Haha! I get to use the internet in my office and sometimes I'm really bored, so you can expect more updates from me when I have absolutely nothing left to do in the office! L0L! Alright then, I shall stop here for now. By the way, I removed the songs from my blog because I was starting to get bored of it. L0L! Take care everyone and feel free to give me your opinions on the new blogskin! Cya! =] "Sometimes people are on the outside looking in because they don’t have any money. But sometimes people are on the outside looking in because they don’t have any class." - Waiter Rant |
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