I'm feeling better and actually I'm alright already! =] Thanks Hongyue for your concern! I read your entry and I'm touched! Don't worry! I know I'm not alone anymore and there's always someone I can turn to. Believe me, I know you will always be there for me although it may not be physically, but hey as long as I know you're there for me, then that's more than enough! =] Thanks Joa Bro for talking things out with me and clearing things up! I apologise for what I did. Thanks for the guidance bro. =]

I wanted to blog about something I heard during service yesterday. Basically, that service was really heartwarming because I was able to connect with what the speaker said. He asked this question... "How many people can you call at 2am knowing that they will be there for you and not think that you are bothering them?" The first name that came into my head was instance without a shadow of a doubt and I don't second guessed that person. Slowly, a few names came into mind, but I still had to put some thought about whether they are willing to be there for me. Yeah, so I would like you guys to think about the same question too!

How many people can you call at 2am knowing that they will be there for you and not think that you are bothering them?

It would be great if you have many, but then again how many of them are actually willing to listen and advise you? For me, I don't need that many people there for me ALWAYS. As long as I know that there are at least 3 people I can call and relate my issues with, it is more than enough already! I can safely say that there are at least 3 people I can actually call! right? Right!? L0L!

Anyway, the service was I tell you ahhh... POWER ! I felt His presence right in front of me. Yeah, it was a really amazing service. Praise and worship was Great! Sermon was incredible! Oh oh, there was this part where the speaker said "The lone ranger is always the first to die". Somewhere along that line, which is true la actually. He said that to grow as a Christian, one cannot do it alone. In other words, cannot solo kia la. He advised everyone to join a cell group or bible study class. I thought about it and I have to admit that he's right la. I cannot be leading a Christian life on my own because it isn't possible. Furthermore, my whole family nobody Christian leh! GG! Yeah, when I came back to church, I keep thinking that I'll be able to lead my own Christian life on my own. I thought that all I had to do was trust in Him and everything would be alright, which is true! However, in order to grow as a Christian, I won't be able to do it alone. Therefore, I guess some changes will have to be make right?

Ok, what I'm about to say next, I've probably talked about for a couple of times already. I'm still going to say it again because I think there are still people who haven't really realise it? Yes, I'm a Christian now. Yes, I'm attending service at City Harvest. I know there are friends and people I know that do not like certain stuff done in City Harvest. Hey, you guys are by all means entitled to your own opinion, but that doesn't mean everything you guys say is accurate. Still, do not judge me by my religion or even the church I go to. Judge me for WHO I AM! And I assure everyone that I'm still the same old Shawn just that I've grown spiritually. Other than that, I'm still ME! I really do not want to lose friends just because of religion or the church I attend. That's what I hope everyone can understand and perharps spread the word to those friends of mine who do not read my blog too! =]

I learnt something from Fei Ge yesterday too! "Running away and being MIA(Missing In Action) isn't going to solve my problems". If I don't speak up and speak my mind, my problems will never be solved. As you all should know by now, I always keep things to myself when I'm angry/sad/disappointed etc. What good does it do when you do not tell the other party your thoughts towards the things they say or do if you're mad at them? How is the other party ever going to find out? The only thing that will happen is that both parties will drift apart. That only makes the situation worse and it won't get any better. In other words, I was being childish and selfish la. Yes, a lifelong lesson by my bro that I'll always remember. Now, I can understand why people say that when someone lectures or scold you, it is for your own good. The reason is because they care about you. If they do not care or bother, they could just easily walked away or not do anything about it. Therefore, I'm blessed to have a wonderful bro that cares! =]

The way I see things is that an arguement can end up in 2 different scenarios. First of all, the friendship or relationship between both parties is lost and they never talk to each other ever again. The second scenario is that the friendship or relationship between both parties strengthens because they relate to each other what the issue is that they didn't like about the other party. Clearly, the outcome that anyone wants is the second scenario la. I don't know about you, but I realise that whenever I have an arguement or disagreement with someone and we manage to clear things up, our friendship will always grow and we will become closer! I'm speaking from experience here because I've been in these sort of situations for at least twice? And yes, I'm still very close with these friends of mine! =] I think I can write a book man! Agree? It should be titled "Relationships For Dummies!" L0L!

Tomorrow's Fei Ge's 20th Birthday! So Happy Birthday in advance! Tsk. 20 years old already man, can call you Uncle liao! L0L! Better start acting like a 20 year old too! L0L! Anyway, have a wonderful and blessed 20th Birthday! =]

Let's see, anything else that I missed out? I doubt so. Oh, I promise to be less EMO-ish k Hongyue? Yea! That's my promise to you, so don't worry about me! I'll be alright! That's all for me today la hor? K la k la. Take care, god bless and see everyone again soon k? =]

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