Part Deux.
my name is Shawn. The Message.
Tunes. Them. Daryl Farhanah Hongyue Jian Chao Liu Yun Qing Xiang Serene Previously. Ep 4.2 - The Difference Between Colleagues & Friends Ep 3.2 - 3 Months Later... Ep 2.2 - New Year; New Hope. Ep 1.2 Chapter II Ep 7.1 - The Real World. Ep 6.1 - Righting The Wrongs Ep 5.1 - Empty. Ep 4.1 - No Boundaries Ep 3.1 - Me, You, Us. Ep 2.1 - Progress & Breakups The Past. May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 April 2008 May 2008 September 2008 December 2008 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 December 2009 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 July 2010 December 2010 June 2011 Credits. This skin is produced by Headlight Productions. The icons are from Three More Steps. All codes are meticulously hand-coded, and can not be used as basecodes or reference. All css and javascript in the code passes validation. © Copyright Headlight 2008 - Forever. All Rights Reserved. |
Previously On Shawn's Blog
Tuesday, April 27, 2010 9:26 am
Ep 1.3 - my name is Shawn.
my name is Shawn and this is my story...
this series is to give an insight of my life and why i am the way i am. some of my close friends still don't understand the way i handle things. i always have a reason to do the things i do. hopefully the ones i truly care about will come to realise who i am. this series will also remind myself of the things i've overcomed. the things that built me into who i am today. events that have changed my life. situations that i have to face. mistakes that i've made. maybe this entry will help me resolve certain issues in my life. 15th Feb 1988 - marks the day i was born. that means, 22 years walking on this very earth. my Family is small, just the 4 of us. dad, mum, elder sis 3 yrs older than i am. and how can anyone forget Leo? my 1.5 year old baby pup! well, i've never been close with my family. perhaps you could say because of circumstances? dad is the kind that "anything goes". mum always feel she's right and wants things her way. sis, never really cared or took care of me. physically she's there, but i somehow don't feel her presence at times. myself, the stubborn and rebellious brother. i don't share much with my family. i tend to keep to myself, my thoughts, my problems. sometimes i would share it with my closer friends rather than them. i admire some of my friends who are so close with their family. both their parents are like friends to them rather than parents. sometimes i do feel awkward when others ask my about my family. what do i tell them? i've never really been able to answer that question properly. life in Primary school was a start of something new. people would make fun of me because i was soft? however, i made really close friends with some. others, i didn't really care much about. i wasn't the study kind of person unlike my sister. her results would always be uncomparable to mine. the worst part was she was selfish. she didn't want to help me with my studies at all. i slowly grew to hate her. my mum used to cane me for getting poor results. maybe i wasn't putting as much effort as i should. however, i did try at least. then something happened in pri 4 towards the exams. my mum was hospitalised. she had to go through an operation. it was probably the first reality check i had at the age of 9. after the operation, she had to stay in hospital for quite awhile. i would cry sometimes in the showers without my dad knowing. i didn't want him to get worried more than he already was. that was probably the first turning point of my life. i realised that i should do things on my own. be initiave and take life in my own hands. the hardest part was leaving to Secondary school. i wanted to get into the same school as my closer friends. but it was tough and my results weren't so good either. i didn't manage to get into any of the schools nearby as well. i was very disappointed when i knew the school i was going to. it was so difficult to part from people you have been for 6 years. i felt secondary school was just to get over the 4 years as fast as i could. i didn't really care what was going to happen. that was the wrong way to enter into a new environment. i was very reserved during the start of secondary school. i didn't talk or socialise much. thankfully, there were more outgoing and friendly people. they approached me first and i started to open up slowly. friends came and go. some left for different schools. some went to different classes. me? i kept a low profile and did what i have to. the close friends that i made, i still keep in close contact. some others i still do as well, unfortunately not as much. so 4 years came and go, so did the 'O' level exams. i thought i did fairly alright. however, it didn't seem that way when the results came. L1R5 was 25 and L1R4 was 19. that dashed my hopes of getting into the course i wanted to. i was pretty lost and didn't know what to study. my options were limited as well. i decided to take up an engineering course in the end. the reason being it can open more doors for me. so began the life in Polytechnic. everyone had this idea that life in poly is better than in jc. are you freakin' kiddin' me ? whoever said that in poly you don't have to go everyday is nt true! lessons started from morning all the way till evening at times. well, before school officially started, there was an orientation. it was quite a boring one to be frank. although i managed to meet my classmates. still, it was not lively at all. my approach in poly changed. i decided to be more approachable and open up to others first. i've learnt that everyone is shy when they first meet. if i don't make the first step to know the person, would they? if they don't, then are we just going to sit there quietly? so things became better in poly. i managed to get to know different people from different walks of life. there were many different classes as well. so i had the chance to get to know more people. we had lots of fun times in poly. from skipping classes to having long breaks. from sleeping in class to making fun of the lecturers. from copying assignments to spending long hours doing projects. it was all the nonsense that made me grew close with my poly friends. poly life changed my view and perspective of a lot of things. things change and people change too. i started to see the world for what it truly is. i started to change my opinion of certain things. i felt a change in myself as well... 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