A new season !
A new start !
A fresh beginning !

This is the second season on Shawn's blog!
Unfortunately, The amazing 1-week break has come to an end.
It would be back to work (or camp) tomorrow.
I'm not really keen on heading back to work.
However, I do miss my close friends whom I've not seen in a week!
So, it's quite a bitter-sweet thing actually. =x

School this week was interesting too!
I'm studying 3 modules this semester and I had 2 on-site classes the past week.
I'm quite happy with my module selections.
I'm going to learn to use 3ds Max, which is a software that creates 3D stuff.
Also the very important Adobe Photoshop would help me alot in future.
The other software is called Audacity, a digital audio software.
So yeah, with knowledge of all the above, I'm sure it will open more doors for me.

My dad has been asking me to go Cambodia in Nov/Dec.
I definitely do want to go!
However, I'm not sure if I can because of work.
I'm still uncertain if I'll be in the same unit by then.
If all goes well, I'll head on to the new unit in late Nov.
Hopefully, when I'm there, I'll be able to take my leave to go abroad.

I'm planning to go Cambodia as well as Batam again.
I really need to plan things out well.
I now have to balance out between work, play and studies.
2009 is coming to an end fast !
For some reason, I feel that it's going past way too quickly.

Although I've already started studying, I feel there's more I need to do.
I still have slightly more than a year left in NS.
I definitely want to make full use of it.
Doing things I've always wanted to do.
Trying something new.
Most importantly, have the best time of my life!

I know that once NS is over, life starts again.
I'll probably not have as much time as I would like.
Well, that also depends on what I'll be doing after NS though.
hehehe.

Alrighty, I'm going to stop here for now!
I'm going to turn in now !
Looks like it's going to be back to early nights yet again.
Ah well, take care everyone! Cheers! =]

hello world !

I'm back again ! heh!
Yes, it's like becoming a once a month entry again.
This is what happens when you become lazy!
Time to buck up Shawn!

So my last weekend was spent in Batam!
It was great for a short getaway and I enjoyed my time there!
Go-Karts, Banana-Boats, Kayaks, Massages, Food!!
Best of all, a 2-Bedroom Suite!
I spent below $250 in total for everything.

My friends and I are thinking of heading there again in December!
Wee! I'm hoping more people will come the next time!
My dad mentioned about going to Cambodia in December too.
Man, looks like December is going to be fun!

Anyway, school starts tomorrow !
I'm excited and anxious at the same time.
Hopefully, I'll be able to cope with my studies and do well.
I definitely want to learn as much as I can.
Even if this is not what I eventually decide to do,
it will still help me out a whole lot in the future.

Photoshop, Animation, Audio/Video Editing.
These are definitely some stuff that I'm keen on learning !
I need to get back to driving too!
I haven't been going for lessons since I failed my first TP.
In fact, I have not even booked my next TP.
I just checked and slots are only available in December.
Uh oh! I think I need to get back on it fast !

I'm just afraid it will clash with any plans to go abroad.
Ah well, we'll see what I can get to.
I'm thinking of going to other places in December.
Maybe Vietnam or Thailand?
But I'm fine even if it's Batam! Wee!

Anyway, I'm usually asleep at this timing.
However, I'm still awake because I'm off for the whole week!
Yayy ! A break from work at last !
So please do date me if you guys are free on the weekdays! =]

Oh yes, I'm going to talk about the Real World this time!
There's always this dilemma when making certain decisions.
Do you follow your heart or your head?
A wise friend once told me he doesn't understand why people say that.
Simply because the head is the one with the brain!
It's true in a sense, however the heart has feelings and emotions.

I'm the kind that will normally follow my heart.
However, recently things have been more complex.
I realised that you can't always please everyone.
The reason being you yourself would not be happy.
So you have to use your head and think things through.
Some decisions may turn out to be self-centered and selfish.
But then again, you can't possible always put others before yourself right?

I have a friend who makes decisions following his religion.
He feels he should do his best in everything and help as much as he can.
It isn't wrong, in fact it's very respectable.
Something I would love to do just as much.
But I've come to realise that if you do that, The Real World takes advantage.
The Real World doesn't care how good you are.
They only care about taking advantage of you to help them.
This irritates me alot as there isn't appreciation at all.

It has led to me thinking this..
The more you know, the more people will take advantage of you.
Therefore, there is no point to showcase your full potential.
I feel it's very unfortunate, but sadly, that's how The Real World works.
This is exactly what is happening to me.
People just keep throwing things at you because they know you can do it.
Even when you are busy and they aren't, they would still not do it.
How does that make me feel then ?

Oh well, noone said life was going to be easy.
It's an unfair world out there.
I guess sometimes you truly have to look out for yourself.
Think about yourself before putting others in front of you.
This is something I would definitely do from now on when it comes to work.

You can't always be nice and help everyone.
That's what I've learnt!
I'm going to stop here for now.
Although I won't be in camp tomorrow, it's still going to be a long day!
So take care and god bless! =]

我不知不覺 又徘徊在從前
Unconsciously,
I have wandered back to the past again

秋風悄悄的呼喚 聽來盡是孤單
The autumn wind calls softly,
filled with loneliness when heard

落葉的期盼 片片左右為難
The yearning of falling leaves,
every leaf feeling caught in the middle

心走寂寞攀 跟著飄進黑暗
My heart embarks on a lonesome climb,
then drifts into darkness

我不聞不問* 也許好過一點
If I don’t show interest in anything,
perhaps I would feel better

被遺憾關在房間 掙扎只是拖延
Locked in the room by regret,
struggling is only to delay (what is to happen)

無望的空談 一聲聲的輕嘆
Empty chatter with no hope,
soft sighs one after another

回憶扯不斷 怎麼擺脫糾纏
If memories cannot be torn apart,
then how can one escape from entanglement

找不到方向 往彩虹天堂
Unable to find my way,
(I) head towards the rainbow heaven

有你說的愛 在用幸福觸摸懮傷
There’s the love you speak of
that is using happiness to touch sadness

Someway, Somehow, I feel I've lost my way.
Something just doesn't feel the same anymore.
Perharps, it's me or maybe, the people around me.
It's been totally chaotic this entire month.
My emotions are running all over the place.

I feel that I need a long break.
Away from everything that has been going on.
I want to get away from all the nonsense.
Things are so different without that someone to talk to.
Without that someone who understands.

Why is this happening ?
What have I done to deserve this?
Why can't things just be normal?
I don't get it.

The environment has totally changed.
Now, I dread waking up in the mornings.
As it simply means I have to face all the bullshit.
I only need sane and sincere people.
Not people who lives in their own world;
Not people whose thoughts are all wrong;
Not people who just uses you.

Where have all the happy times gone to?
Somehow, I can't seem to tolerate people that much anymore.
How did it come to this?

Life is full of choices.
We, ourselves, make these choices.
We are responsible for our own actions, choices and decisions.
Everyone is entitled to their own opinion.
Sometimes, others will feel the choice you make isn't right.
However, on your part, it feels like the right thing to do.
So how does one separates the Rights from the Wrongs?

Sometimes, we make decisions that will benefit ourselves.
Others will feel it is a selfish thing, but is it wrong?
How can one always put others before himself?
Especially when he knows that others won't look out for him?
So then, what's right and what's wrong ?

It's hard to find people who will always have your back.
That's why when you do find them, don't let them go.
I learnt alot today.
At the same time, I can't look at certain people the same anymore.

I realised that I have to separate Friends from Work.
Most colleagues are not your friends.
They're there because they're there.
I'm pretty sure that once they all out of your life;
They won't bother to keep in touch.
These are the people who I consider as colleagues.
People, you simply got no choice, but to work with.

Well, I still have to deal with it.
This is my absolutely sad life for you.
True friends are truly hard to find. =[
I won't take them for granted anymore.
You shouldn't too.

"Have no friends not equal to yourself."
- Confucious

Tried to take a picture of love
Didn't think I'd miss her that much
I wanna fill this new frame but it's Empty

Tried to write a letter in ink
It's been getting better I think
I've got a piece of paper but it's Empty
It's Empty

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts
We're Empty

And I even wonder if we
Should be getting under these sheets
We could lie in this bed but it's Empty
It's Empty

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts
We're Empty

The Click Five - Empty

If there's one word to describe how I feel, it would be Empty.
As I type this, you're already on the plane towards there.
I'm already missing you.
This 6 months without here would be the toughest.

The person I can talk to about anything.
The person I know that will always be there for me.
The person I can talk with about my problems.
The person that motivates and encourage me.
The person who keeps me sane.
Most importantly, the person who loves me for who I am.

Although I know that you'll come back,
but just the thought of you leaving makes me feel lost.
Imagine, 2 of the people closest to you, leaving you on the same week.
I don't think I can ever find another person like you.

It really makes me start to think who my true friends are.
The ones that will be there when you need them.
I realised that people who I thought are my "friends",
are actually not.
They just befriend me to benefit themselves.

Sometimes, I just want to get away from here.
Get away from all the nonsense and backstabbing
and FAKE! FAKE! FAKE! people.
I'm seriously done with it.

I know that you'll be back after this 6 months.
However, without you here with me,
Life is going to be Empty.

WOO !! August ! I Love August !!!
Yes ! LCP Shawn at last !
An amazing increment of $20.
I shall have a positive outlook for the rest of the month.
Things are getting better already. =]

However, I've somehow lost interest in driving.
My TP is on 10 of Sept, which is still a month away.
I should be focus and all, but for some reason, I don't care.
If I pass, then good. If I don't, I doubt I will try again.

So tomorrow is the promotion ceremony !
I just realised that it would be 8 months in NS already!
Oh man, I can't believe how fast it is.
Life is good.

I'm thankful and grateful for how everything worked out so far this year.
Last year when I received my enlistment letter, I wasn't too excited.
I was already mentally prepared to enter SAF and I didn't know much about SCDF.
Now, I'm so glad I entered into CD and got posted to a great unit.
Yes, 4th Div is 5 bus stops away, but the friendships I made in BRTC is priceless.
This comes to show that everything happens for a reason. =]

I'm not saying that everyone in there is nice, but there's always a choice.
I just don't mix with those egoistical that think they are better than others.
Thankfully, there isn't too many of those.
Sometimes, it just drives me nuts just being in the same room as them.
Maybe, it's a certain vibe or aura that they give off. L0L.

Oh those of you that own a Nintendo Wii, please buy and play Rayman Raving Rabbids!
It's damn irritaing and fun at the same time!
If you're having a bad day, get a friend and play that.
Your life will never be the same again!
Haha, please feel free to invite me over if you do have it! =x

Should I go Philippines this month with my friend?
It would be a great escape from work!
However, next month is audit, which means there will be lots to do this month.
Oh man, should I ? should I ?
I've never been there before too!
The good thing is my dear friend is from there, so I won't have to worry about any language barrier.
How? Tell me how ?

Alright! I'm going to stop here for today.
I love august!!
I'll leave you with this..

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

Cheers! =]

Damn! July is a terrible month!
I HATE July!!
Things are just not going well...

Enlistment day was pretty screwed up.
Phototaking for Recruits was just as bad or worse.
New OC is just making too many changes.
I missed my driving practical lesson ($70).
Family issues.
Friendships.

I might even missed some other stuff.
What the heck, July is horrifying !
Thankfully, there are always those that keep me sane.
What would I do without you guys ! =[

Friendship is between 2 individuals, not more.
How I feel towards a friend, might not be the same towards another.
How is it that me not talking to someone affects you?
It's my choice to make and not yours.
Simply, none of your business.
If I do not like someone, that's my problem with that person, definitely not yours.
I do not understand how this angers you.
So, just stay out of it.

So, I've booked my driving practical test date!
10 of September. I'm pretty confident in failing it.
However, you never know if you never try!
I've cleared Stage 3 already.
This means only 4 more lessons and 1 Auto-Car lesson left!
After that, it would be revision all the way till the test day.
Somehow, I do regret taking my license. =[

There are people that still don't get me even though I've known them for years.
I've always been straight up with everyone.
I say things exactly the way it is.
How I treat you, does not mean I treat someone else the same.
If I don't like an individual, I just don't mix with him/her.
If you do not like mixing with me, then don't. If you have to tell me, go ahead.
Do not boss me around.
Trust has to be earned.
I'm always there for my friends if they need me.
Screw me once, shame on you. Screw me twice, shame on me.

Acquaintance > Friend > Good Friend > Close Friend > Best Friend > B.F.Fs!
From B.F.Fs, there can either be Romance or Bromance! =]
I hope with this entry, I managed to clarify certain things.
Mainly, more about me and how I hate July.
I would recommend that you get to know me and judge for yourself!
Tune in next time for another episode! Cheers! =]

Goodbye June, Hello July!

Another month has passed, that means half a year has gone !
Soon, I'm going to see a third person ORD.
That means a step closer for me ! Hah!
Tuesday is enlistment day again! After that, 6 more enlistments to go!

Driving has been progressing well. Stage 1 has been cleared!
I'm not facing a little difficulty in lane changing, but it'll work out!
Perhaps slowly, but surely. =]

Have seen a few breakups recently...
Depressing and heartbreaking, but life has to go on.
I do not believe in a relationship having to "take a break".
It shouldn't even be classified as "complicated".
Either you're in a relationship or you're not. Simple.
A guy should never let a gal wait for his decision.
Either you continue the relationship or put her out of her misery.
Real men don't say "I think we need to take a break for awhile".
What the hell is that supposed to mean?
You should never leave another party hanging !

Alright, enough ranting...
So, a new OC is taking over the current one.
Things aren't really looking up right now.
He seems very particular in work and has real high standards.
He wants everyone to learn almost everything.
Ahh well, am not too keen with him taking over.
Someone save me! =[

Tomorrow's going to be a huge day.
My medical test results are going to be out.
Hopefully all is well and I'm healthy!
I do feel that something's wrong with me nowadays though.
I get tired easily and my bed time seems to be earlier.
Oh well, I can't wait to know the results tomorrow.

For those of you who didn't know, Zara is having a 30% sales!
If I'm not wrong, it started last week.
Unfortunately for me, I bought a tshirt from there 3 weeks ago.
I found out last week the price was $10 cheaper. =[
Have been spending quite a lot recently and I really need to cut down.

I'm stopping here for today.
It's raining and it means a good time to sleep!
Cheers to that!
Take care and tune in for the next episode! =]